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Monday, March 9, 2009 8:54:00 PM
.EMOTIONS HIDDEN BEHIND THE MASK.
weaRiNg a CHEERY mask evERywheRe sEem eaSy buT aCtUlLy.. iT isn'T! aS day'S gOes by, thE maSk i'm weaRing is geTting duSty wiTh soRts of coMmenTS peoPLe gaVE it! queStiONs of whetHeR my emOTions exiSted?? fiLterEd uP with fuCk uP woRDS! sPiLtagE of ANnoYAnce! buT alL they caN give Is Extra OPinIONs.. quEstiONs and givinG suGGestions. But care NOT abOUt the FEELings deeP wiTHin my vEins. .CONFUSE.
in SChooL.. beinG iGnored is whAt peOplE haTEd moSt bUT ignORing is wHAt they aLwaYS do.ouR eYes coNtaCTED and you shoUlD reALise tHAt. yOU wantEd to KNow me bEtteR.. bUT how..?? With boTh of Us beinG SpeeChleSS?? With us IgnoRing eaCh othER.. ?? this is What i DOn't UnderstanD.. At fiRst, yOU makEs mE feEl liKe i'm the 'haPPiest and luCkiEst' giRl in the woRld. theN, yOU leFt me woNdering aLl SeasoNs and weAtheRS. i want tO know.. what do you ActualLY want?? hOw further dO you wanT our FrienDSHIP to LaSt?? or Do you Do thIS juSt becauSE of a BeT?? or mAybe yOu're trying to Make me feEl guIlty foR the pASt moMents?? so.. which one is it???? Do you oR do You NOT like me?? if you dO.. then why areN't you stAndiNg uP to mE witH yoUR oWn WiLl??? if you don't.. why don'T you telL me?? queStions jUmbliNg in mY minD stayEd UNansweRed.how am i To fiGuRe ouT ouR freak feelings??? do yOu even caRE that you'Ve messeD uP my minD?? it huRts to be IgnoreD in schoOL.! do You feEl the same waY as me????? juSt for ones.. approAch me in SchoOl talk abOUt what you fucking want!!! i'm sucking up all the bullshit. i hate it! i wanna quit! and i don wanna care anymore!! |
Yours truly, |
