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Saturday, May 22, 2010 5:28:00 PM
Bismillah-ir rahmaan-ir rahiim my trust  my trust in you just got rustier each day. i've never thought you would betray my trust. i guess i was wrong. you once told me that i can trust you but what happened yesterday make me lost trust in you. if your intention is to break my heart, well, you succeed. what'cha waiting for? go celebrate! boys will always be boys. Immature, self-centred, Naive! lucky for me, i hadn't fall in your trap; to love you. never in my life, i thought of hating you but today you just made it happen. i will never want talk to you or even remember you. i shouldn't have trusted you in the first place. all this while you have been a JERK! our friendship ends here. Amiin. Labels: i'll pretend that we have never even met each other.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010 12:23:00 PM
Bismillah-ir rahmaan-ir rahiim smile :)  the little girl that's crying in me is smiling. eventhough i didn't expect that my life will be this tough, but it feels as if everything that my family and i have been going through is finally over. although there's still a lot to catch up on. like my school staff, my house at laguna, my long destination, our renovations in yishun. nevertheless, im just glad that i have my own house and not really privacy but my family are getting closer each day. we rely on each other more now and then. help out with the chores and went out every night to have dinner together. you noe, like how families are. but im not putting my hope too high cause anything can happen. so, i'll just pray for the better then. feeling lonely but im feeling happy. smiling to myself; :) Amiin. Labels: welcome back happiness.
Saturday, May 15, 2010 9:38:00 AM
Bismillah-ir rahmaan-ir rahiim moving out..  pack up, we're moving out. after dismissal i walked out of school with shahlis, checked out my inbox. a text from my dad, "To all my love. FYI, this weekends, 15 and 16th of may 2010, we're shifting or you could say moving out to Yishun. Be prepare and pack all your belongings in woodlands." it's been days since im away from woodlands. i have been staying in teresaville with my cousins at tiong bahru to study and refrain from seeing and fighting with my dad. tried to acclimate in woodlands but in vain. noise everywhere. reminiscing through out in the train weren't sure how to react once i move to Yishun. i mean, life have been pretty rough on me now and then. be it environment or my dad. called up my mom after dismissal on friday. i asked her if i should go back to woodland. well, obviously she said yes and told me that i could take my school staff in tiong bahru on sunday. i remembered the first time i shifted out from boon lay. everything just went chaotic, every second. looking out the window and im further away from my friends. it feels as if my first love left me. nevertheless, i tried to stay strong. relationships between my family didn't went so well. i never express myself to my peeps. Now, it's 15 may 2010, 9.35am. the day when my best cousin is returning to singapore and hang out with me and dude but instead everything ruin our plans. now im not sure when he's going back to malaysia. i hope the day is not soon. kept turning my head to watch the time on the clock hanging on the wall. 9.44am. people bringing large quantities of boxes are coming their way to woodland and im going to have to pack up all my staff again. moving further away from friends. im not sure if whatever that had happened or is happening is going to make my life jubilant to move on. the neighbours there aren't friendly at all. god, im breaking down. i guess im just being taught to be patient, strong, responsible and independent. To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become. -Charles Dubois Amiin. Labels: it has always been me and my shadow. wonder while wandering. |
Yours truly, |
