Sagittarius:
July 21 onwards New Moon Solar Eclipse in Cancer in your solar eighth house affects you for the next 3-6 months. This is a time of empowerment. It is a good time to focus on issues of intimacy(closeness, familiarity, warmth, affection.) as well as developing selfmastery skills. You may experience increased awareness of others—what makes them tick—as well as your own internal motivations during this period. It is a time when intimacy and deep levels of sharing are heightened. It is also a favorable time to start a financial plan, savings plan, take out a loan or consolidate, and do work in accounting.
today, i know every DETAIL of hasif attitude.

like i said before.. i'm a very OBSERVANT person.

i've studied noh's type of a person.

shahlis's type of person.

faz's type of a person.

syidah's type of a person. shahirah's type of a person.

well, most of them.

as i got deeper on geting to know them..

a thought just shouted..

"are they my true friends??!!"

(once you read this, don't get my intentions WRONG.. all i want to do is to EXPRESS myself..)

i used to be a JUDGMENTAL person.

but now, i'm more of a PERCEIVING(in other words i'm aware of most things) person.

and so.. let's reflect on today's event.

RACIAL HARMONY DAY

Friends kept asking me why i covered myself with the bag..

Well, i'm MOST probably am EMBARRASS with my costume.

i felt NAKED that's why i covered myself with the bag.

now, that's the truth.!

and noh asked me again during recess.. and hasif interfere with our conversation.

i kept QUIET..

and infront of me.. hasif whispered to noh about somthing..

and noh LAUGHED straight at my face..

have you ever thought about how i FELT that moment..??

i DON tHINK SO!

when you do things.. please try to think about others feelings will ya!!!

i'm not trying to say that i've never done that kindda MISTAKES..

but at least i realised it and apologise at that moment..

For hasif A2:

hasif, do you remember the time when i ADVISED you not to talk DIRTY infront of syidah..??

well, at that moment i saw you taking it SERIOUSLY.

but if you ever remembered me saying this..

"hasif.. don take it too hard tao.. i'm just ADVISING"

you know what went through my mind..??

"i just don't want you to get SCOLDED by syidah HARSHLY"

but at night, after night study.. everyone seems to BLAME it on me..

what wrong did i do.. i was just ADVISING..

while you didn't even give syidah any reaction when she scolded you HARSHLY..

there's a DIFFERENCE between ADVISNG and SCOLDING HARSHLY..

but you CHOOSE to be HURT by a random ADVISE..

why??????? (this isn't the only situation.. there's alot more)

for syidah A2:

syidah your words are too HARSH!

and i don like it at times..

i mean i can FIGHT back you know!!!

but i choose not to.

because i don't want to HURT your feelings..

at times i know it's all just a JOKE..

but you've gone too FAR!

but don't get me wrong.. i don't hate you at all..

i just want you to realise that your words hurts most people(names NOT mentioned)..

and i HATE the fact that..

whenever you said something STUPID.. i didn't show any faces..

all i do is SMILE and LAUGH along..

but when it's me who said something stupid, you showed me those faces that i don't like..

that's why most of the time.. i show faces to you when you speak NONSENSE...

it's becoz.. i want you to feel EXACTLY how I felt. (a lot more to say.. but i'm not mentioning it).

to fazrin:

you've shown IMPROVEMENT in your attitude towards me.

don't take it too HARD when i SHOUTED or SCOLDED you.

i'm trying to make you realise that i don't like it..

but if it really HURTS.

i APOLOGISE from the bottom of my heart.

To FARID:

Farid, do you noe the reasons why I don't want you to see how i look like in my costume??reasons:

i know you MORE than you know ME!

You're the IMMATURE type.

you love to CRITICISE others by thinking it's FUNNY without realising how they feel.

whether or not they SMILE or LAUGH along.

you just don't get it do you???

and thanks for INSULTING me tonight..

and for your own KNOWLEDGE..

I'M PROUD OF BEING BLACK!!

ouh.. and yea. try to..

LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR!

you got a million IMPERFECT words to DESCRIBE about YOURSELF(in and out).

and..

CRITICISM AND DULLNESS JUST REFLECTED YOU!

tell me.. how many girls have REJECTED you??

WOW! you just lost a friend, ME.

yes.. you still got others by your side..

but TRUST me..

it WON'T BE LONG!

many people (names NOT mentioned) had told me bout your ATTITUDE..

trust me.. MOST are BAD things.

and nothing to be surprise about.. i BELIEVE them..

why..?

because like i said i'm very OBSERVANT..

..such CRAP..

Labels: i need to forget about the past and move FORWARD.