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Monday, August 17, 2009 4:42:00 PM
before i came to skul today, i felt uneasy and new sumthing is gonna happen today.. friends are there having fun, joking around. while i'm feeling miserable. there i was minding my own business. and evan was like.. nelly you're pretty. i was like. ouh.. thanks. and he was like too bad you're dark. i acted as if i didn't hear him and continued toking to shawn. as the time passes by, einstein came to our place. evan said to farhana that i've hated him before and i told evan.. yea.. i did.. but that's so history. i've realise that there's no point hating sumone. it's not as if they like us or sumthing. evan was like yea. out of a sudden, einstein was like, how do you get to noe that you're black. n i tried to ans but i was speechless. and just continued with my work. i mean, what have i done wrong..? why does ppl love to make me feel so miserable..? i smiled whenever you guys hurt me. n about this sumone who tag me.. i don give a fuck bout him but evan and einstein are just being unreasonable. yes i'm black and i'm proud of it. i was born this way and you noe, i will never forget what han hui said to me.. not to mention my own friend, jia jin. they might not noe how i feel but i felt hurt and low. it's a whole new generation and you guys still care about colours..??? have you guys ever consider this quote..? "But suppose God is black? What if we go to Heaven and we, all our lives, have treated the Negro as an inferior, and God is there, and we look up and He is not white? What then is our response?"- Robert F. Kennedy why can't you guys just accept indifferences? i accept the fact that evan is and irritating freak but still i didn't criticise him. i accepted the criticism that einstein gave me and i still said his laughter is cute. i accepted jia jin's weird religion. why can't you guys do the same thing..? i guess i can't expect anything good from you guys huh??? and i'm dissapointed at how mik has been treating me. you have never been there fer me and you made me feel as if you never care. "Friendship is the sharing of joy, whether physical, emotional, psychic, or intellectual, forms a bridge between the sharers which can be the basis for understanding much of what is not shared between them, and lessens the threat of their difference."- Audre Lorde "No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow."- Alice Walker you guys will never understand. sobs. Labels: accept the indifferences |
Yours truly, |
