how sweet.. my couzy post..

I swear i cant imagine a life WITHOUT her. i love her so much i cant bear to LEAVE her side just like that. and i ULTIMATELY love that cousin of mine who is so INDEPENDENT, RESPONSIBLE, CARING, LOVING and who is so HEARTBROKEN right now.
i feel the EXACT same way as you Nelly Natalia.
i feel so sad, so confused...i can't look back at that MOMENT. it made me feel the WORSE.
i love GRANNY. she told me to PRAY hard to GOD. she told me that everythings gonna be ALRIGHT. but look at her now. when i look at her, her eyes HOLD mine. and i know what she's telling me. i will NENEK..i will. i want her to be well again. even though she's at HOME.
dont we all deserve hapiness??? dont we believe in faith, even if its JUST a little.
FAIRYTALES dont always have happy endings. but im TELLING you. this is REALITY.
its DIFFERENT. we dont have magic. we dont have anything that can CHANGE in the blink of an EYE. we can only HOPE and PRAY for the best. im still wondering HOW it got to this.
im not sure WHAT m gonna do next, but its SOMETHING.
oh and NELLY,
your last post on 20th June made me CRY inside. i may not have a heart like YOURS. but we sure can feel the same way. i learnt to LIVE dangerously.
i learnt to ADAPT [science?] i learnt to make THINGS flow like how EVERYONE agrees.
life wont always go your way. BUT you can make them change. IF you just put YOUR mind to it.
i used to think i was HOPELESS,USELESS and much more...
who i am now is DIFFERENT from who i was before. the PAST..well.... it made me SAD.. it made me CRY. not tear up, CRY.... it made me feel LONELY. i changed, i decided i NEVER wanted to look at the past again. so i packed them INTO boxes. put those boxes aside. iit didnt matter if anything happened to those boxes because i would never need them again.
but now, i want to go THROUGH every memory. EMPTY the boxes. POUR 'em all out..
i dont care at all..... i just wish i could TURN back the clock and put things the way i WANTED them to be..sadky, its never GOING to happen.. if the world ENDS then, so what? i've had my life.. i just HOPE i get that LAST chance.. a HAPPY ending. thats all..
-mathilda [adeq(:]

and yea.. 11 june 2009

at last we had our 3 AMIGOS outing! but this time adding one more person.. kak nana..

our elder couzy.. we ate and talk about our recent life.. and got quite a similarities going on.. haha

i just MISS hanging out with them.. but yea.. we didn't took picstos this time.. donnoe y.. but we don.. and we hang out at west mall.. so we would be nearer to the HOSPITAL.. aww..

well.. i just hope i could hang out with mathilda and my sis the next time we met.. INCLUDING farisha..